I have had a whole week off from work on stress leave. Some stuff has been going on at work that I can't say about here in case anyone from work happens across this blog. I can however say that I have made a formal complaint against my boss on behalf of myself and the other restaurant staff.
Having the week off has been brilliant and has calmed me down so I now don't feel so frantic, angry and depressed. This is great, a big feeling of "phew!".
While I have had this time off my creativity has gone through the roof and I had a massive realisation about why my employment situation has and is not been working for me since we have lived here in Australia.
Light bulb Moment!! - I am used to being employed in jobs where I am pretty much autonomous, its been this way for as long as I can remember, since back when I was working in fish and chip shops in my late teens.
Sure I have had a boss, just like every one else, but for the most part its a matter of "Here is the job, do what you have to do, here are the keys/code and don't forget to lock up when you are finished."
I am not used to having a boss who is constantly breathing down my neck, watching everything I do and mucking with what I am doing. In my previous jobs I have been applauded for thinking outside the square, for affecting positive change and coming up with ideas to improve systems, advertising etc, etc. I am so not used to having all my ideas flattened because "that's not how we do it" or "there's no money in the budget for that" (even though the employer has just spent $xxxxx.xx on buying new photocopiers or other unnecessary shit, and my idea was free or at least very inexpensive.. think $10) Oh my other personal favourite is -" Head office won't let us do that" OH REALLY?? Did you even bother to ask or is it just another fabulous cop out??
Anyway before I continue to rant and vent about how it is right now .. I should move on! Which brings me to the point of:
HOW DO I AFFECT CHANGE FOR MYSELF?
So a I just said not a paragraph ago, I am pretty good at coming up with ideas to change or improve things for other people/businesses, because I take ownership of my job, the place where I work is subsequently treated as if it were my own. Perhaps then I could be taking ownership of my own situation and affecting change for myself in the same manner? If I put half the energy into doing what I want to do that I put into my employment then I should do pretty well. Oh and in case you are wondering and I know you are :-) I do have a plan, its pretty loose at this stage (kind of like when you start a new piece of knitting or when you are waiting for jelly to set!!) but its a plan none the less.
Anyway that's enough waffle and blah for today, I'm off to the gym (yes that is part of the plan!)